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So earlier this year. I ended an 8 year relationship. It was a really long time coming. Looking back, I made the decision to end this relationship years ago, but I’m a taurus and harbor a mild fear of nobody else wanting me that is deffo tied to my fear that everybody hates me, so it took me a while to get around to it. Plus I have known my former partner since we were teenagers, and outside of our romantic relationship we had a great friendship. The problem was that he couldn’t support me in any of the ways I needed him too, particularly emotionally and financially. This had been going on for sometimw, but became especially acute after I started law school. As a result of me being completely unsupported, amd having to support both myself and my ex at the same time, I have actually felt single for years. My relationship was a lot less like having a partner and a lot more like having a not-so-helpful roommate. We hadn’t even really done anything socially together for at least 2 years. The fact that this was so long coming and was (at least for me) more of a formality than anything else, meant that I left the relationship having already gone through a grieving process and was ready to move on.

Maybe I’m being silly, maybe I need to do something different or whatever, but I really have felt alone and used for so long, and I am ready to know what it feels like to be loved and supported by someone who doesn’t just see me as a piggy bank. I really do like being in a relationship. I like having a partner who is there for mutual support, who I can hang out and have fun with, and who I can be physically affectionate with. I’m not looking to jump into something with the next guy I see. I know myself very well, and I know its going to take a particular type of person to be able to handle me full time. Not to be that person, but I have a very strong, assertive personality, and I would absolutely demolish a weak man without a second thought. Plus, I learned a lot in my last relationship about what does and doesn’t work for me. The point is, I have expectations about what I want/need, and I’m not willing to settle. But at the same time, I very sincerely hope I’m not staring down the barrel of a long period of being alone. Again, I really do like having a romantic partner, and I very much want to experience a relationship that fullfills me in all the ways my last one didn’t.

I also don’t have much interest in wasting my time and dicking around, so I can’t imagine “dating” is going to be much more than a massive headache for me.

I don’t really know what this is for other than to put some feelings I’ve been having into words and share them with strangers on the internet.

Finishing up the second week of my summer job clerking at a law firm. I’m here until 5 and definitely do not have enough to do to keep me occupied until then (and certainly not enough to keep me from overthinking shit lol). Cue periodically scrolling through tumblr on my phone all day.

starlightsol:

so loving the vibes of my latest edition ✨ citrine point 🌼🌞

offateandfortune:

The ancient Egyptians believed that the buzzing of bees was the humming of souls come back from the afterlife. Similarly, in Scotland it was believed that, should your soul leave your body whilst you sleep, it would do so in the form of a bee.

A couple new pin designs! Still in concept stage, but you can find my other pins here

woodelf68:

skullvis:

I need to let you all know that I’ve changed my Privacy Policy. I will no longer keep any of my thoughts private. I will now yell every single thought I have out loud at the top of my lungs. There is no way to decline my terms and conditions. I am going to be yelling at the top of my lungs. There is nothing you can do to stop me.

@normal-horoscopes

dachosmin:

smokesprite:

viggo mortensen’s appeal as aragorn is 70% the voice, 25% the scene where the wild horse saves him from drowning, 12% hair, 8% ‘the beacons are lit!’, 3% swinging around the broken blade, 1.03% spitting soup back into the bowl on a windy day, .3% the way he speaks elvish (which mostly fits into the voice, but its elvish so its special), and .0004% when he kicks the orc head and screams

This is blatant “smoking a pipe with his hood on in Bree” and “shoving the double doors of helm’s deep open” erasure and I will not stand for it.

elodieunderglass:

argumate:

penfairy:

some oddly specific advice from Hesiod (c700 BC)

which thicc girl hurt you (and stole your grain)

Looking up makeup tutorials for How To Paint Pretty Symbols on Your Own Ass (To Look Like The Slayer of Men and Deceitful Acquirer of Grain That You Really Are Inside)